Why Did This Library Was Created In The First Place

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Take it as a grain of salt due to lack of physical evidence. Assume this is just a delusional claim that I may or may not hallucinated.

On My Mother With Her “Doa Will Come True” Threat

My mother would say stuff like “If I pray bad things about you, it would come true” and uses religion about doa becoming true or not. She would often use it on me when I act out like the injustice of not getting treatment.

I then went for this attack “Funny your god decided to inflict pain on you and show me the truth by inflicting my brother with schizophrenia. After all, everything is under God’s control, isn’t it? Seems like even your own god disagrees with you.

I prefer if it was on my father or my mother though, but I wouldn’t deny the effectiveness of having equal starting points from both me and my younger brother to make me really see the contradiction so clearly.”

She then make a passing comment about “jobs” and stuff like that because I was unemployed for quite a while.

I replied: “Didn’t you pray for that? Deal with it.”

On My Schizophrenic Younger Brother

Apparently my own schizophrenic second youngest brother decided to physically attack me because he couldn’t stand me complaining about the delayed treatment to everywhere including the family WhatsApp group, when near my parents and so on. I was profoundly… Unimpressed. Given that he does weight-lifting, he is actually physically stronger than me so he have the ability to kill me if he wants to. I mean he tried a chokehold on me while I was pinned on the ground and my father tried to pull him away.

When my father pulled my schizophrenic younger brother away, I told to my father “Do you want to know where he learns it is acceptable to physically abuse others? One from you whenever your own sons break your valuable stuff. Another one comes from the mother who physically assaults and screams at the father.”

I can sense the amount of profound regret when he didn’t realize that their own sons could actually outpower their own father and could probably hit back at my father.

My next plan when it comes to my schizophrenic younger brother involves… I am not going to attack back and let him finish the chokehold right in front of the cameras that my father added inside of the house for some reason. I mean, I am going to lose anyways given my schizophrenic brother’s strength from weight-lifting, so why try to escape when you will lose eventually? I mean, look at my schizophrenic brother’s muscles around his arms! My arms don’t have that much muscles! My best guess that I will be very quite fucked if me and my schizophrenic brother are in the kitchen. Then, we will have a real crime scene here. After all, I have no reason to live that much.